this is techno..wait, no its not...oh behave!
i ended up having yay in my system for about 6 days. but that binge-if you can call such a relatively small amount of coke a binge. well, i dont know if it was a small amount, but it never seems like enough. anyways, that binge is over for now.
tuesday night i decided to party though. and by party i mean tcs. me and miguel took enough dxm for everyone in the house (probably exempting los) to trip buttons. it was good.
we were on the roof finding pirate ships and dragons in the clouds.
as far as transcending demensions, theres not much i can tell you on that because im keeping the secrets of the universe locked in parts of my brain only accessible by dxm.
but i can tell you that i so could have had dxm sex with migs. but i couldnt! how could i? how could i really ever have sex with any one of the guys. theyre my brothers. make out buddies. no more!
it was awkward. the closeness. ive always longed for that closeness with my guy friends, but not closeness and then the whisper: ive never been horny on dxm.
its awkward because ive never gone home hoping to hear those words. its awkward because i dont have the need to caress his hair or to breathe in his skin. even if i dont love, or really like, my one night stands, i at least want to touch them. i at least want them to touch me. but, not with friends.
im pretty sure that things wont change between us. theres no reason for them too. but the night was awkward. it ended with beondra asking us if we were going to go out. no! we cuddled. made out a little-when no one was around. and had an awesome trip together. its what we all do all the time. i hate when people misconstrue things. and people make assumptions. and spread assumptions. and get upset about mislead assumptions. not that anyones upset right now, but it could cause an upset. no, i dont care. nothing happened.
the trip was great until miguel went and wanted to get all physical on me.
im going to suggest tripping again.
and, maybe if no one else is at the house rolling ball or barred up that night, we can have dxm sex.
maybe.
i will substitute the lack of coke, money, and coke money for dxm for the next week or more. it will be fun.