dont mind me, im growing up
theres some things i havent done.
most of them, im willing to try once.
i feel like my heyday is come and gone, though.
now will never be the time to discover certain things..
last weekend was a hootenanny.
i had the chance to do things ive always wanted to do and there was no scary environment or anything that would make me not want to.
and still i didnt. because i just cant anymore..
okay, so i took a couple of hits of crack..just made me a little focused and talkative..
and, okay..so i snorted some heroin the next night..but it was mostly coke.
but they both just made me feel like i was on adderall. so it wasnt anything too exciting.
then i was offered a night with tina.
goddamn i considered it good.
but i used my better judgement and declined.
now mind you, i paid nothing for none of it..and still..i declined.
i wanted to. but my adult sensibilities got the better of me. all around...i knew it was better not to...
i feel like the whole 48 hours was a wash though considering what i did partake in...its about equal to what i turned down...
so..its pretty much like nothing even happened..
nice.