inapickle
its not like the old days, thats for sure. its less. much less. and less people. but a good core group.
minus a bad apple every now and again.
i want more.
i want as much as my body can handle.
if i ever got that close-which i feel i did a few times-i want it again.
but im just too god damned smart for it.
or so i thought. until i started giving someone money for it constantly.
i had to save his texts in which he pledged to return the funds i lent.
i dont like it. i wish i had only my own addiction to deal with. i did for a long time and i abstained. dumb damn partner in crime. and i love him so what the fuck can i do. oh, and i live with him and his family.