i wish i were a junkie
i let myself be talked into stupid things so easily. coke, roxies, drinking. its sad.
but, what better things have i to do? is how i feel...
its gotta stop. cameo got us bad coke the other night. $40. white roxies one night. $20. theres other things. i took a roxy one night and just threw it right back up.
im not too crazy concerned though. should that be cause for concern??
fourth of july shan and i got shrooms. very weak. mild. affordable though. thats why i did it. i shouldve had triple c's tho. never again will i trip without them. it was fun for a minute. but the more i thought about how i wish they were stronger the less id feel the trip. and it wasnt one you could get terribly lost into. now i know not to get shrooms from ari. no matter how cheap.
i want something...but i dont know what. i think to live in a constant state of carelessness with any drug at my disposal. yeah. can i have that?