still jordi from the block.
i kno i said this with miguel. but i will say it again and mean it more with owen. i dont want white to be a part of us. i dont want to ever do it (again) around him. its not cool.
i can handle it. he cant. i saw that the other night.
we got just a little. to split between about 3 people. and the whole night after we pretty much finished he was wired and his nose was affecting him and i dont think he likes it. but he did it. and i thank him...for being open minded about it for me? but, it wasnt what it could have and should have been. so, it wont be done.
and thats okay. id really like to see what a relationship that doesnt involve coke so much is like. i dont want to fight about it. i dont want to want it. i dont want him to see me want it. so, i wont. i can do that. i dont need it with him.
doesnt mean we cant get trashed nightly other ways. doesnt mean that at all.