Blohan
a mini-binge is what ive been on. and im content. and yet, want more.
today im reading. learning. becoming more informed...more anxious to do more.
i wonder what its like to smoke it. i love choppers. and theres tobacco in that. i dont want anything but coke. i dont want crack. i dont want to mix it with baking soda/powder/whatever...
this is something i found..and its very true...
Over time, and with regular use, people may get paranoid, anxious, and confused, and sometimes they hallucinate. Insomnia, agitation, and depression can also result from frequent cocaine use. The problems with cocaine come from doing too much, its mixture with other drugs, and the crash after binge use. The latter arrives when the initial feelings of well-being and confidence, the sense of being invincible, and the satisfied feelings disappear as suddenly as the rush appeared, leaving the user with the desire to have more. Usually, after a night, or a few nights, of snorting coke, the user crashes -- sleeping all day long, trying to put energy back into the body -- and decides never to do the drug again. Anywhere from a few hours to a few weeks later, the person wants to do it again, searching for that good feeling from the last time.
Cocaine use can easily turn into abuse -- and yes, this can occur shortly after one's first cocaine experience. The brain's pleasure centers that cocaine short-circuits makes its use a mighty hard habit to kick -- despite the side effects of chronic nasal irritation, nosebleeds, paranoia, and bank account depletion. This is an expensive habit!
i think i want more today. 3rd day in a row buying if i get it.
continuing hating myself as well...but i love the cocaine, i love the cocaine..