goodbye yesterday
its been such a turbulent year. 2006 has.
i dont make resolutions. at least not just on account of the fact that its january 1st. thats dumb.
but i have hopes for myself.
as naive as they may be.
i want to have control. and still have a habit.
i want drugs to not be such a heavy part of my life.
i want to not depend on drugs/druggies to make my world go round.
its dumb to say hope because i control all of this. it all can be if i make it so. hope, fate, chance has nothing to do with any of this.
just stay with me miguel. god please dont leave me alone. i need you.
maybe i should tell him this is here...
why, so he can know what a loser and abuser i am? no.
but anyways...happy new years. i hope its better.