the neverending story
i woke up at 6:30am on thursday.
i went to sleep at 2am friday morning.
i woke up at 8:30 that morning.
i havent slept since.
i wont have the opportunity to sleep until at least 8 tonight.
so, out of a projected 63 1/2 hours, i will have slept 6.
im tired.
why didnt i sleep last night? especially when i have to work now?
one guess.
i dont even really want it! so why did i try so fervently (right word?) to get it? why was i so eager to spend my money? thats money i wrote a check for rent for. that the landlord is going to pick up today. so stupid!
did it make me feel great? eh. yeah, i guess. but...what was the urgency? why couldnt i wait for a weekend off or a time when i actually had money? so many questions. only one answer.
im an asshole.
i dont want it anymore. i dont. i really, truly dont.
make it stop.
im so tired.