tonights mantra
i fought it. for the last 3 1/2 hours ive fought it. i didnt want to seem weak. or needy. or greedy.
at the same time, there was contempt. resentment. that no one else had to fight like this. that they didnt burn with self-hate and self-loathing. that they had to fight to stay away.
i got what i wanted. but fuck! i didnt. because i want more. itll never be enough.
just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow. just keep drinking. just keep smoking. im going to trip tomorrow.